Eat. Pray. Eat some more.

G’Day!

I must say, I am so incredibly overwhelmed with the amount of positive responses I got from my first blog last week. I got so many people asking to go “do things” with me and I have never felt so loved. Thank you all so much for that!

Well… tickle my chin and call me Rhonda… let’s get started!

(My 2nd attempt at not smiling in a photo. Not easy.)

As you’ve probably noticed from my increasingly frequent social media posts, I’ve started “doing things” and I already feel so much better. (I post a lot because I am addicted to the instant approval and “likes” from both friends and strangers… I’m an actor… instant gratification is what I live for … sue me.)

As I’ve mentioned in probably my 18 millionth FB post, 2016 left me feeling quite winded. It left me feeling like I wanted to climb to the top of a cliff, drop to my knee’s and yell “WHYYYYYYY!?!?” (while there’s an intense swell of music in the very dramatic underscoring of my life that happens in my head) I feel like 2016 snubbed out my “light” so to speak. However… bit by bit... I’m slowly finding my light is coming back in small pieces. Part of what has kept me feeling this unhappiness is just general antsy-ness. I have spent a lot of time home alone in my room when I used to be a person who was constantly dancing or rehearsing or even just going outside.

And now... I shall segue into a quote that keeps popping into my head:

“Ruin is the road to transformation”.... #deep

You’re probably thinking “Ooooooo, Ali you’re so wise and insightful!”

No…

I mean I have my moments…

…BUT I actually got this quote from the movie “Eat. Pray. Love” said by my girl, Julia Roberts. This movie was pretty good (I still have fantasies about all the naughty things I’d do to that pizza she ate in Italy… I would just DESTROY it.) The main thing I took from that movie was that if you’re unhappy with your life, change it. The unfortunate thing is I’m a starving... okay actually I eat all the time so I guess I'm more like a “struggling" artist. I can’t afford to just pack up and jet off to the other side of the world for a full year of self-reflection, meditation, eating my weight in food and finding a moderately attractive man in Bali and sailing off to a private island to spend the rest of our lives together.

Instead I’m going to find my “transformation” in a different way and that way is by throwing myself into every creative outlet that I can.

I got my lazy ass up and danced.

I did my very first professional film gig

(My costume for the film gig. What a hoot.)

I picked up a guitar for the first time in 4 years (I’m awful at it BTW)

WHAT’S NEXT!?!

Learn the banjo? Learn to paint?? Sky-dive!?! (haha hellll no...)

Ali 2.0 is in progress and is coming along slowly but surely.

That being said, I’m also learning to be okay with where I’m at right now and to be patient with myself. Also, I would never strive for a “perfect Ali” because perfection is boring as hell.

Time to get my light back, here goes nothing!

“Let’s Do Things!”